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[11 Jun 2007|12:27pm]
[ mood | blank ]

sometimes i wonder.....

I've been off work for a week now.  I came home lst monday coz I had tightness in my right arm and felt dizzy.  I thought I was dying.  Went to the hospital, waited there for over to 2 hours and when a Dr finally saw me, he asked what was wrong with me, I tld him.  He said don't worry you're not having a heart attck (that was nice to know!) go and see your dr.  He didn't even take my blood pressure!  I twas like lets see how many people we can churn out in the next hour!  So I went to my Dr's the next day and he checked my blood pressure - it was way high!  He wasn't impressed by the Dr in the hospital!  Everytime I ring work (wehave to call daily) to inform them that im not coming I feel so guilty.... its like everyoneis thinking: yea we know u're lying but whatever!

So much has happened..........

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makes me wonder.... [13 Mar 2007|04:45pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

did I ever exist?

I've search and search and I can't find me..... makes me wonder.... did I mean anything at all?  

Have I mean erased....completed wiped out...not to be seen, heard of anywhere.....then why?

Makes me wonder, even after we have what we think we have always wanted...but when we really think about it maybe we haven't really got it all.  Marriage for instance....supposed to be or meant to be...two people entering into a relationship....full of love, trust, honesty...faithful - ness (if thats a word).  

So why, when we have done this, promised to be all of the above and more...do we still crave more...but not necessarily with that person.  Is it the attention that another gives us? Would it be the different way they talk to you, maybe tell you everything that you want to here from the person you are married to?  Maybe its the fantasy of how it could be.... thoughts going around in your head....how would it be if s/he touched me..would just the once make a difference....will s/he find out?....does it matter?

I was talking to my work colleagues the other day and we started talking about our partners and sex etc.  One of them said...I just wish I could go and do naughty things with someone else (by this she meant sex...just plain sex) just do it and thats it...not strings attached.  I said coz you have someone...does that not make a difference...she said yes but if he wanted to as, I wouldn't mind...hmmm...got me thinking....

I was very quick to say that.....but .....just wonders.....

ps these icons make me laugh even more!...  :)

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[13 Mar 2007|03:26pm]
[ mood | blank ]

so...i post in other journals or if someone leaves a comment in mine...where do i find them? meaning before you use to get an email so that you could reply...wat happens now? neone?.....help! :)

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did i really write like this....? [04 Mar 2007|06:29pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

really? I would like to lay you down on the bed...and sit on you, making myself comfortable, slowly undo your shirt buttons.....slipping your shirt off your shoulders, I want to kiss them, bite...lick them...then i want to move down to your nipples, pulling at them.. circling them with my tongue.... I’d lift my mouth from your now hard nipples and take both your hands…lifting them above your head I’d tie them gently to the posts with my silk stockings.. I’d go back to concentrating on your chest and nipples…taking a bit of oil from the bottle on the bedside table, I’d rub it gently on your chest…. Deep long slow circular motions, and as I’d rub, my body would be moving with my hands… you can feel my cunt underneath you, rubbing against your pants… I can feel your hard on… I bend down and kiss you playing with your tongue….I rub myself on your stomach…your breathing is getting heavier…I undo your pant buttons and push them down and then your boxers….oh boy are you hard…I touch the head of your cock with my fingers…. I like what I see. I look at you… I can see it in your eyes, you want me to touch you… to take you into my warm mouth…… you want to cum in the there… spray your juices inside me…I kiss the tip softly.. and a moan escapes you….I get back on top of you and position myself on your shaft I’m wet…I push your cock into my tight cunt…and grind myself against you, first slowly and then faster……I’m going wild. My hands rubbing against your chest, pulling your nipples…my back arches. I know I’m going to come….but before I do, you’ve freed yourself from the stocking ties and have rolled on top of me. Pulling out of me……………

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HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [04 Mar 2007|05:44pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

How do i view past entries? I can't find the calender thing...i found it yesterday and was looking at past entries but today i've sat here for 40 minutes and nothing!

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[02 Mar 2007|03:36pm]
[ mood | sick ]

hmmmm...done the bed....

now i was thinking...i kno i know...my brain....:P

i was thinking of wearing a saree...but i'm not so sure.  I haven't wore a saree since Mehak's naming day.Which was back in November last year.  I feel a little awkward.  I could bath, do my hair, put some make up on and wear a saree....  

When Abhi gets home his words will be:  

                                                                                                      where you going?

**i wish i hadn't ate that sandwich**

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not enough time [02 Mar 2007|01:50pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I can't believe it's already 2pm!  Where has the day gone!  My leg still hurts...my other leg has started to hurt now.  I'm hungry but can't be bothered to go down and get something to eat......being too lazy.  I've got loads to do.  I buzzed Savio a few times but he isn't there, I thought maybe he could talk me out of doing the house work! :)  I wonder where he is?   I guess it being friday evening there, it must be buzzing.....so much to do than sitting at home.  I wish I was there (India).  Going out to the choppati (beach)...trying all those wonderful dishes that tantalise the taste buds!  A little bit of kattha, a little bit of meetha! Hmmm yummy, my mouth is watering!

Right, Mehak is sleeping so I think I will change the bedsheets, hoover and then clean the bathroom, unless someone wants to come along and distract me.

I wonder what Harvey is doing?

(arrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhh I hate these icons...they have the same blank expression on them!!!)

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[01 Mar 2007|03:31pm]
[ mood | busy ]

so....yesterday...an old friend got in touch.  A forgotten friend.  Actually a friend I didn't even remember.  Anyway this friend buzzed me and it was quite scary actually.  Coz the way he say hi was...well lets just say I thought 'shit i did something when I was younger and now its come back to bite me in the arse!'  It was nothing like that though.  

The friend wanted to apologise for something...something at first I couldn't even remember that had happened...what can I say motherhood has burnt alot of my brain cells!

But anyway I finally remembered who this person was....and at first I couldn't understand, why after all this time they would come back...and that just to apologise...hmmmm or as he says...mhmmm

But after speaking to him, I am glad he came back...not to say sorry but it was good to chat to him again.  I hope we can become friends again.  He is a sweet guy.....

Amazing, sometimes you sit there wondering if the people you met years ago still think about you? whether they are sat there and contemplating the same as you: are they thinking of you?  what are they doing?  And I guess someone was thinking about me without me knowing...makes me feel special...sounds barmy...

I was browsing through some friends journals today...im home as I've got an infectious leg....dont ask.  I'm hoping I can read through some of the lj laters.

I see the mood icons haven't changed!

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[01 Mar 2007|11:19am]
[ mood | awake ]

Hello Savio

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so this is what a saturday morning feels like..... [10 Dec 2005|10:23am]
[ mood | productive ]

wow....it's been a while... maybe a long while.... can I say that?

It's been ages since I've had a saturday to myself....no Abhi (seemed a little lonely at first). What does a girl do? CLEAN!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah! The house is a mess..... I woke up one morning and looked around me and thought OMG I'm turning into one of those people who buy a house but only use it to sleep in and nothing more..... it was a tip, clothes everywhere, I couldn't rem which ones had been washed and which needed washing! I ended up washing the washed ones and folding and putting away the unwashed ones!

Sometimes when I go to friends or relatives houses and it use to be a mess I use to say don't you ever clean? it looks like a tip! They use to reply, 'I'm busy I go to work' excuses I use to say... but now I get it! So today I am going to clean the house (of course it won't be as clean and sparkling as the Stepford Wives houses and nor will I be smiling constantly whilst cleaning!) ;)

I logged onto YIM today (yahoo instant messenger - as a friend told me - i thought it was some new programme) and a friend who I haven't chatted to in ages buzzed me - now I have chatted to him after I got married but this must have slipped his mind.....he was going on and on and asking me all sort of questions and then he asked are you with neone.. I asked what do you mean? he said if I was seeing someone? I said yes my husband.... he congratulated me and and then said goodbye.... :) Can married women not have male friends? hmmmmm...

It's our first christmas in our house..... I am really excited.... it's been a tough year... but we are getting there. My parents and uncle and aunty are coming over for christmas dinner. I can't wait. We are also thinking of havng a new years eve party.... all r invited.

if any of you are online give me a buzz.... 'm here cleaning away whilst listening to the sexy Enrique! Yummy!

Take cares

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[02 May 2005|11:22am]
[ mood | rushed ]

Can you believe it??  I can.  Bank holiday weekend and both sat and sun it rained!  And today the sun is out!!!!  It happens eveytime!  Oh well.  Thats life! 

I'm supposed to be meeting up with san in 7 minutes (and I haven't even left the house - whoopsie!) :)  Raj isn't coming now, she has guests round :( so I wasn't too happy about that - I shopped for them coming on sat and now... well more for me!

hope ur all well this monday bank holiday - the only perks of working in a bank!

now im going to spend some of hubby's money! ;)


(that mood does not looked rushed, it looks like its about to blow!) :P

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'THOUGHT FOR THE DAY - I like this one :) [29 Apr 2005|07:02am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Any married man should forget his mistakes. There's no use  in
two people
remembering the same thing*

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[29 Apr 2005|06:41am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I need sleep!  I am addicted to watching COLD CASE on sky one.  9pm and I'm on that couch all curled up and ready for it! :)  I think if I hurry up, I can get 15 minutes of sleep in before getting ready for work.

I was asked the other day how my writing was coming along....hmmmm  its on top of a shelf somewhere in the spare room gathering dust.  I never get the chance to write these days - its sad that we don't always make time for the things we love to do.... gonna try and change that .

Me, San and Raj have booked a few days off - friday the 13th being one of the them.  We are going to have a girly day.  I'm having most of my hair chopped off, we are having a manicure,pedicure,eyebrows done, arms waxed (eeks).  Raj says she is going to make look sezy!  Yeah!  its possible even with me! :P

Hubby doesn't know - its gonna be a surprise - when he sees me and also when he finds out he has paid for it!!! *heehee*  We've also booked half day on my b'day.  Can't wait.  Raj has promised she is going to get rat assed with me!

My parents wanted us both to go away to Kenya with them for our hols - but we can't go as e can't get the time off.  So bz at work.  So I have decided that if they go away, I am going to try and book a weekend  going to see the Mandir in Wales.  I've been told its beautiful and also Wales is a beautiful place.  So lets see.  It would be nice to goaway for a weekend.  Just me and him.


anyway going to go and try and get some kip before going to work.


Toodles!  :)

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[07 Sep 2004|08:13am]
[ mood | busy ]

Popular interests among sweetange1's friends
1. movies (13) 11. cats (8)
2. music (13) 12. water (7)
3. books (12) 13. writing (7)
4. poetry (12) 14. women (7)
5. reading (12) 15. india (7)
6. love (11) 16. cooking (6)
7. art (10) 17. fantasy (6)
8. sex (10) 18. vampires (6)
9. photography (10) 19. chocolate (6)
10. computers (9) 20. candles (6)
Interests gestalt
My most interesting friend is moonchild30 who has 14 of these interests,
followed by sweetange1 (14), winkie_woo (14) and neteng (11).
Normality Index
My friends are 84.01% normal.
Analyze me !
Popular interests created by _imran_
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[01 Sep 2004|09:20pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]


i thought this was sooo sweet that i had to share... :)

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stolen from the person who stole it from the other person and so on.... [28 Jul 2004|11:41am]
[ mood | sleepy ]


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[03 Jul 2004|09:36am]
[ mood | crazy ]

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[19 Jun 2004|08:37pm]
[ mood | restless ]

"words are what we are, we can convey so much hatred in so many words, but when we can say something without malice or hate, we can build more than what we can destroy"

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[21 May 2004|09:13pm]
If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.
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Facts about this and that........ [29 Mar 2004|06:57am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

some funny things that keep me entertained at work!

The first couple to be shown in bed together on prime time TV were Fred and Wilma Flintstone.


Every day more money is printed for Monopoly than the US Treasury.


Men can read smaller print than women can; women can hear better.


Coca-Cola was originally green.


It is impossible to lick your elbow.


The state with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska


The percentage of Africa that is wilderness: 28% (now get this...)

The percentage of North America that is wilderness: 38%


The cost of raising a medium-size dog to the age of eleven: $6,400


The average number of people airborne over the US any given hour: 61,000


Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.


The world's youngest parents were 8 and 9 and lived in China in 1910.


The youngest pope was 11 years old.


The first novel ever written on a typewriter: Tom Sawyer.


Those San Francisco Cable cars are the only mobile National Monuments.


Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history:

Spades - King David,

Hearts - Charlemagne,

Clubs -Alexander, the Great

Diamonds - Julius Caesar


111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321


If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the

air, the person died in battle. If the horse has one front leg in the air

the person died as a result of wounds received in battle. If the horse has

all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.


Only two people signed the Declaration of Independence on July 4th, John

Hancock and Charles Thomson. Most of the rest signed on August 2, but the last signature wasn't added until 5 years later.


"I am." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language.


Hershey's Kisses are called that because the machine that makes them looks like it's kissing the conveyor belt.


Q. Half of all Americans live within 50 miles of what?

A. Their birthplace


Q. Most boat owners name their boats. What is the most popular boat name requested?

A. Obsession


Q. If you were to spell out numbers, how far would you have to go until you

would find the letter "A"?

A. One thousand


Q. What do bulletproof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers, and laser

printers all have in common?

A. All invented by women.


Q. What is the only food that doesn't spoil?

A. Honey


Q. There are more collect calls on this day than any other day of the year?

A. Father's Day


Q. What trivia fact about Mel Blanc (voice of Bugs Bunny) is the most


A. He was allergic to carrots.


Q. What is an activity performed by 40% of all people at a party?

A. Snoop in your medicine cabinet.


In Shakespeare's time, mattresses were secured on bed frames by ropes.

When you pulled on the ropes the mattress tightened, making the bed

firmer to sleep on. Hence the phrase "goodnight, sleep tight".


It was the accepted practice in Babylon 4,000 years ago that for a month

after the wedding, the bride's father would supply his son-in-law with all

the mead he could drink. Mead is a honey beer and because their calendar

was lunar based, this period was called the honey month we know today as

the honeymoon.


In English pubs, ale is ordered by pints and quarts. So in old England,

when customers got unruly, the bartender would yell at them mind their own

pints and quarts and settle down. It's where we get the phrase "mind your

P's and Q's"


Many years ago in England, pub frequenters had a whistle baked into the

rim or handle of their ceramic cups. When they needed a refill, they used

the whistle to get some service. "Wet your whistle" is the phrase inspired

by this practice.


In Scotland, a new game was invented. It was entitled Gentlemen Only.

Ladies Forbidden.... and thus the word GOLF entered into the English language.

~~~~~~~~~~~AND FINALLY~~~~~~~~~~~~

At least 75% of people who read this will try to lick their elbow.

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